Change is inevitable. I have had a lot of time to think this past weekend and I think I have finally come to peace with all that has occurred over the past couple years! Not only in relationships, but friends...family...trips. I'm finally satisfied with where I've been, where I'm at, and where I'm headed. Yesterday was June 7th. Which, many of you would remember one year ago when I thought my life was over. Someone very important to me walked out of my life, and I wasn't sure how to go on without that individual. The struggle over the past year has taught me so much, and helped me mature and grow into the person I've been yearning to become. As an adult now, I need to step up to the plate and begin making smart choices that will not only benefit me, but possibly others around me. With a smile on my face, I now lay down at night satisfied with my surroundings. I can't be more grateful how things played out! Without coming to Rexburg this spring I would have never made the advances I have. I now know that relationships come and go. The important ones stick by your side through thick and thin, and the rest get weeded out. As much as I love the idea of my past goals, they were unrealistic. Dad was right. Jeremy was right. Curt was right. Matt was right. Adam was supportive which I'm grateful but he too was right. Stephanie was more than right... Mom understood what I was going through and I couldn't have made it without her support and love. Many hours...(too many hours at that) spent wasted on pointless tears and worries. Exactly a year later, I've overcome the ongoing "love-battle" and walk out my door every day for a new adventure, and new acquaintances. How wonderfully blessed I am to have such an amazing family:) I can't thank Heavenly Father enough for my best friends that have held my hand through the years to keep me on the straight and narrow path! I'm surprised it took a year. wow! We all grow up so fast!
Well, I wanted to share the following little conversation I recently had with a close friend back home. He said he had figured me out, (doubtful I don't even know myself sometimes) but he nailed it pretty much the first try! Kind of interesting, he must read too many horoscopes!
k your smart, obviously you graduated with honors or atleast a high gpa from sandpoint then did your lil alaska thingy and now your going to a decently known college, you have a head on your shoulders but that also came from the high standards your parents kind of set while you were growing up. Not super strict but enough to keep you in line. relationships are big in your life, you haven't had many but the ones you have had you will never forget, and for you it's hard to get over things, which is fine because you have a strong heart and alot of passion with the things you do. Now your looking up in a positive manner towards your future, hopefully find a guy in the near future, someone who you feel comfortable with and a possible life long partner. You want to suceed in school not only to please yourself but to please your parents, seeing how a lot of their money was invested in it. A big reason you lie awake at night is when you were going through the break up you would stay up late, thinking, crying, etc. and there would be a lot of sleepless nights so your mind got into a rythm of thinking about life, and stuf in general before you fall asleep. So now that the dust has settled your mind is set on the "lets review the day before i pass out" and think of upcoming events you use it more of a tool now to ease yor mind and sleep better. You're strong!
