Christmas Time!

At the theater we decorated for christmas. I was out of commission when they did all the lights and everything but I did get to go in and see it. They did it Friday night. Adam and Brandi happened to be up that evening, so we all went in the see the movie Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa. I slept through most all of it due to pain - but it was nice to get out of the house for once in a few days. The theater looks so festive. The boys unscrewed all the overhead light bulbs except 3 so the lobby is compeletly illuminated solely by lights. It so pretty I've never enjoyed working so much. The decorations really add to the seasons mood.

This is my stocking! Aren't they cute, mom and I found them at the Dollar Store!

The giant decorations hanging from the ceiling are amazing!

Wouldn't you just feel "in the christmas spirit" If you walked in here?

Tabitha, Autumn and I.

My high school friend Autumn. She's been a real blessing through this new "single" situation of mine. She's the only one I know that still resides here in Sandpoint, and boy has she been a great friend through it all. So far she's been a really AWESOME addition to the theater. She picked things up so quickly and it's really nice to have somone dependable. I think she'll be a great supervisor, and i'm excited mom took my recommendation! I'm excited to spend the next few months hanging out with Autumn! :)

Pros and Cons

These are a few pros and cons for working at the movie theater. Luckily I'll only be there till April. I like working at the movie theater, I like being a supervisor, but here's the advantages and disadvantages of working under your mom!

PROS:

• scheduling
• she knows when i'm really sick and can't work.
• something familiar to come back to
• never have to learn new things
• same job, same people

CONS:

• always talk about work
• can't really request a raise (no matter how much you deserve it) without be accused of favortism.
• people think your always a spy.
• since i've been there too long i seem to open my mouth when learning new things.
• Late hours means bad roads
• always having to train and re-train.
• not being able to get the same time off as mom usually

The End of This Chapter

I know many have been wondering, what exactly is the story with Deanna's love life? Well I'm here now to answer all those questions. I wouldn't be writing this so soon if it weren't for One:Bodie crying at the door because mom and dad just left, Two: I had gotten a good nights sleep, Three: All I want to do right this second is text him and I know I can't/shouldn't. Ok so here is the story (mainly because I just need to get it out.)

I had wanted to see people all weekend. I was so bored at home all by myself...I really wanted to see Del and Carson but everytime I asked them to do something, they were busy working on Del's bike. Finally last night they said they wanted to come over and watch the rest of Adams videos he let us borrow, but they had to go to town to pick up Carsons' Girlfriend. When they got here, Del asked how I was - How I was feeling, and if "i was surviving" Well he wouldn't exactly know because I couldn't really talk on the phone. When we would text I thought he wanted nothing to do with me, and I hadn't really seen him much. So no he didn't know I am still in a lot of pain, i'm still very weak, can't talk, and can hardly eat. But instead of spilling all that out, I just simply said yes...Yes I am surviving.

We watched a snowmobile movie, and I though Janel (carsons girlfriend) Was bored the whole time. I'm not sure if she's the type to just have casual relaxing get togethers but i'm sure in time we'll find out. Del sat on the floor for the first movie, and the second all 4 of us on the couch. Although we were really crammed on the couch for the 2nd movie, it felt as though Del and I were miles apart...Even emotionally. My head hurt so bad, and I was too tired I think from going back to work too soon, So all I wanted to do was sleep. I kept nodding off and to my luck that video we watched last was VERY SHORT! I went to take my pain pills, Followed by Del to get some water. We stood in the kitchen, and I asked him a few simple questions that needed to be clearified. "have you been avoiding me..." -no, "Are you distancing yourself" -I'm not trying too. "is it over." -Seems so, nothing has been working. I watched him get 2 big tears in his eyes and they turned red. Eventhough they didn't stream down his face, I could see the saddness in his eyes. It's hard to say goodbye to something you didn't want to have to let go. We have had so many memories over the passed 2 years, almost to be exact. Seeing him tear-up I couldn't handle it and I started crying. Stepping aside, as to make a scene. He came to comfort me, but I knew it would only make it worse, if this is how it was going to be, I had to handle it on my own. In fact before he showed up, I had told mom and dad my feelings, I had explained the them that I can't live this lie anymore...I knew it was never going to work, I just needed help ending it. It was so hard to talk in the kitchen with Carson, Janel, Mom and Dad sitting about 15 feet from us, and we just needed to have a short, simple conversation about: What now.

Del and I headed upstairs so I could lay down my Watermelon head. He sat at the end of my bed, and we talked about our christmas presents, what breaking up means to us, and to cancel previous plans we had made together. He was upstairs for about a half hour when he kindly took down my hot compresses (Washclothes for my jaw) for mom to bring back up when they left. Since mom and Carson were so enthused by StormWatchers he just brought them back up, said he was sorry and went to leave. I told him "Del, don't appologize for how you feel. It didn't work, we tried and that's that. We can't change whats not meant to be, and for that, we just have to greatful for what we did have." He nodded and walked down the stairs. Every part of me begged him and wanted him to come back and just sit and talk with me. I wanted to know so many things, like when he was going to start dating, what he was going to do next....If he had already started making decisions....I wanted to know it all, but I knew inside that it's not right, and to say goodbye - truely means saying goodbye.

Del returned upstairs one last time. I wanted one last kiss, but never got one. It didn't feel right to bring it up. Del and my anniversary is Dec. 22nd. And that is the day that marks our very first kiss. We broke up June 7th, exactly 6 months for last night. I can't say that I regret anything about Del and Me. We had a lot of great times, and he helped me grow and figure out alot. Had it not been for him the passed couple months I truely don't think I would have had to courage myself to realize and accept that I need to go back to school. Eventhough, I feel that he is the reason I left in the first place. So, we began with a kiss on the cheek, as he left town to go to california and it has ended with a kiss on my forehead, as he left my room for the last time. I cried quite a bit. It was so hard letting me go, thinking about all the things I truely adore about him, and things I never ever dreamed of letting go. Everything I had wanted to do with him, and things I hadn't had the chance of accomplishing yet. He'll always have a special place in my heart, and I have no doubt we won't still have a special friendship - but that my friends is where it ends.

Now, It will be a long hard road I think to compeletly get over this. What's next you may ask ? Well Tell all your friends, Deanna is single and ready to mingle. haha ok not quite that, but still. Please be paitent. Please realize that if you call, and i'm hanging out with Del, this doesnt mean i'm weak and gave in. IT'S OVER, and we are just friends. No more holding hands, cuddling, kissing....no more. I don't want to hear any suggestions on how to get over him, I don't want to anyone to bad mouth or trash talk Del. He is the most wonderful person in the world. I'm so delighted I had him in my life for so long. I wish him the best, and can only cross my fingers that the family will still be good friends with him. In fact the first thing he said stephanie was "Am I still invited to Bear Lake?" haha we'll see how I feel at that point in time, but I hope the family can accept that this is a huge step. I'm willing to make my boyfriend, my best friend...and let it end there. This is the end of a great chapter in my life, now it's time to head to school in April and start a new one. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers...

Thank you! I love you all.

Del-

I have some letters I'd like to give you. Please don't say sorry for what happend. We both went away and came back 2 different people like we've said all along. We both have different goals in life. We're headed 2 opposite directions. I appreciate the comfort and love you've given to me, and hope that someday you too find someone who offers you love and happiness. I have no doubt we'll look back in years to come, and be greatful we made this move. It is what was destined to happen. I love you for all the memories we shared, and all the good times we had together. I'm always here for you if you need anything. Please don't ever hesitate to call upon me if your stuck in a rut, although my neon might have trouble pulling your truck out. haha kidding but seriously, I'll still kick your trash in my neon anyday. & once again don't hate me, cause if you do "that just means i'm special". -Good times my friend, many.... many good times.

Love always,

Deanna

[THE END.]

The Decision

I think I have told most - but i've come upon a decision.

I'm going back to school in April (after my cruise of course.) We'll have to see how that works out. I plan to Major in either Child Development, or early childhood education with a minor in Culinary arts. I'm excited to have finally made a choice, and feel very good about it. It's set in stone. I plan to probably live at the ridge for the Summer semester, and possible move to snowview for Fall. We'll see how it all works out. Thanks all for your support and prayers. Love you!

Without Wisdom?

OK, I know everyone has this question on their mind...."however did little baby Deanna survive the surgery....?" Truth be told I am a baby, and I almost didn't make it. You see, Wednesday morning I woke up and realized I had cramps. My goodness, I'm sure you're wondering why I would ever tell you this. Well you see - I have to be the only girl in the world that would have her wisdom teeth removed the same day that her little visitor decided to come. Boy O' Boy though do I go through tremendous amounts of pain when it comes, so I already wasn't in a good mood. I couldn't take any pain pills, and considering I couldn't eat after Midnight the night before, I was also running on an empty stomach. Never good. We had to get gas so we were 7 minutes late to the appointment. I walked in and all the ladies were standing around in their surgical suites, goggles, etc... I signed over my life, and then took my X-Ray. Mom came into the briefing with me to get the low down on the risks and precautions. After that they led me to a room, strapped me in a chair and started poking my arm everywhere. Since I was dizzy to begin with all the confusion and hustle and bustle didn't help. Before they started prodding at my fragile arm I felt nauseous, I thought I was going to throw up, then they poked me 5 times....I don't remember much just that they kept putting this crap up my nose to get me to come too. Calling my name and running around saying "we're loosing her...." they were lowering the chair, then a second later they'd raise it. I remember asking for mom, and they said no. Then I'd ask for dad and they said no... I had no clue what was going on. Finally they got the IV in, and I got the most expensive nap of my life. It was like $1355 or something like that. Thank goodness for insurance. I don't remember a thing. Besides waking up and them shoving gauze in my mouth. I asked for mom, they said no. I asked for dad, and guess what...they said no. I started FREAKING OUT....they wouldn't let me see my parents, how dare them! I don't really remember but Mom said that the nurse or whatever you'd call them, said i was experiencing a mild case of shock. I could hardly walk. They got me to the car, and I laid down in the back seat. I don't remember much about the trip home...I told mom the story of the surgery, and I remember we came up on an accident that we went around on a bumpy road that hurt really bad. When we got home mom said Del would be coming over around 6-7. Apparently right when I got out of surgery I was asking for him, and crying? I don't recall but mom called him and told him I was asking for him. He said he could come visit me..... Now let me tell you about what I do remember.

We got home and mom changed my gauze and I laid in bed. She spoon fed me Jello which was hard to eat. I hadn't figured out yet how to swallow without feeling. I was so numb and everything tingled. Del got here, and sat at the side of my bed. Considering I was tired and I couldn't talk he didn't stay long...Just long enough to show me his concern and care. After he left I remember falling asleep watching a movie. I don't recall turning it off. The next thing I knew I opened my eyes, and was throwing up...in my bed. I reached for a plastic bag attempting to holler for dad (who was talking on the phone to Stephanie downstairs) but i was already done. Dad helped me get cleaned up and I went downstairs to be closer to someone...who could help me. I ate a popsicle, and threw up. I drank apple juice and threw it up, and then I drank ginger ale and surprise, surprise I threw it up. I threw up a grand total of 4 times. Mom and Dad were pretty concerned so they called the Emergency hot-line and we got ahold of the dentist. He said that I couldn't keep anything down because while being numb I swallowed too much blood without realizing. SICK!!!! I immediately stopped swallowing anything and just started letting it drool out of my mouth onto a towel, now that must have been a gross sight I'm sure. The doc said I couldn't have anything to eat/drink/or even med's until my stomach had settled and got all the bad fluids out. After a couple hours I felt much much better and drank some Ginger Ale. Following that, I went to bed. (Note: I threw up everything I'd eaten so I was running on empty again.) When mom came to bed, she stopped in the room, rubbed my head and sang me to sleep. I haven't had too much pain, just very very uncomfortable.



[the one on the left is the one that cause the most pain. Bottom left]

Today I was a lot better. I'm really swollan on the Left side. The Surgeon had said that this side might be worse because the tooth was very odd shaped, inset in my bone more - so they had to dig it out, and it is HUGE. I slept pretty much the WHOLE day, until Del came over at 6. He sat on the bed and watched a snowmobile video. I tried staying awake, it was pretty eventful. Dad brought me a chopped Popsicle to eat since I hadn't had any fluids for awhile. After the video was over Del left to get home, and let me rest.




All in all I've learned: Don't swallow blood, Pain killers work, Throwing up is worse when you have gauze in your mouth and you can't open your throat, Mom and Dad are the best, and I'm going back to school in the spring. There you have it folks...My wisdom teeth horror story.

My awful attempt at a smile, but can't you see nothing but joy and happiness being forced to lay in bed all day hahahaha.

A Perfect Thanksgiving Weekend!

Last tuesday I flew to Rexburg to spend the holiday weekend with Stephanie, Andrew and David. Although, it wasn't just us that were planned to spend it together, also to join us were Curt and Jen and Adam and Brandi. My flight out of Boise was an hour delayed which made my layover 5 hours. After almost finishing my book, and watching a movie I was exhausted and really really bored. On wednesday I hung out with Stephanie in the office. She stayed down there till about 2 when we then went upstairs to do some baking. We knew the other siblings would arrive around 6 pm so this gave us the opportunity to get a jump-start on the Thanksgiving feast. We completed : Coconut bread, 2 Banana cream pies, 2 Pumkin pies, Deviled Eggs, and Carrot Supreme. When Adam, Curt and their wives showed up, Cache and David immediately began playing with one another. It was so cute. Now as they Nephews are growing older they are learning things like "sharing" saying "please and thank you." and much....much more. It was facinating to see how much growth there has been in the two of them since I saw them last together in July.

David Playing in his tub of balls :)

David sharing his bucket with Cousin Cache.

Really he just liked throwing them out of the tub, so that Cache would come behind him and put them back in. Haha.


Happy Cache and Aunt Deanna on Thanksgiving Day.

The table is set, and we're ready to eat. On the menu : Turkey, Stuffing, Rolls and Jam, Mashed Potatoes and Gravy, Deviled Eggs, Carrot supreme, Pickels, Cranberry Sause, and MARINELLI'S Courtesy of Jen and Curt:)
(Doesn't it all just look so good!)

Thanksgiving evening while Stephanie and Andrew were in the Blackfoot, Adam & Brandi, Curt and Jen decided to go for a drive to see the new remodels around campus, and also to see improvements and changes in and around rexburg. After turning out of the ridge parking lot this is the site we got to enjoy. Rexburg truely does have the best sunsets. Especially with the Temple right there. We couldn't resist the opportunity of stopping to snap a picture.

Friday it was black friday. Stephanie and I got up with Curt & Jen to go to walmart and try to catch those hot doorbuster items. Unfortunatly we missed out on what we initially came for (or so we thought) But thanks to Jen's watchful eye, it was found just laying in the middle of the isle somewhere. Someone must have decided they didn't need it and just set it down. What a relief! After Walmart Jen, Stephanie and I walked around Porters. I have always loved to go in there and see all the neat craft ideas. I can't wait to have my own home and family to start decorating with/around. Following Porters, we went to pick up all the others at Stephanies' to head to Rexburg Motorsports. It wasn't as busy as last year as I recall the parking lot as stephanie and I headed to Idaho falls, but they also weren't running as good of deals. We all drove our own cars into Idaho falls where we went to Shopko, Target, Walmart (a second time) and then back home. WHAT A DAY! That night we went over to Scuba Steves for dinner. It was awfully nice of him and Emily to invite all 8 of us over for dinner. It was pleasant to visit with great friends! Steve and Emily are the sweetest couple. Their daughters are the most adorable things ever, and they really do know how to host guests.

Saturday morning us girls went to get Pedicures at the beauty school. This here is my foot being messaged by a "senior student"


The 4 of us:)

The end result. From bottom to the left : Stephanie, Me, Brandi, Jen

Saturday night Stephanie wanted to take us out to a place called Mountain River Ranch. It was a dinner show where you went on a sleigh ride. Unfortunatly for us, it was more of a carriage ride (which was still awesome) because there was no snow. When checking in, Stephanie said that the Hansens were ready to get their hand stamped, but what actually turns out is for the night, we were the ...

Yep that's right we were the Huntsmans. After Checking in the Sleigh Ride came to pick us up. We were the first group to go, and we got front row seating. After a little contest to see what tables would line up to eat first, we grabbed our plates and enjoyed : Chicken, Potatoes, Green Beans, Rolls, and Stuffing. It was so filling. For desert it was like this strawberry or maybe raspberry cheescake, i'm not sure what kind but it was really really good! Proceeding dinner was the show, a group of 3 boys ; 2 guitar players and a fiddler. Man the 16 year old fiddler was pretty amazing and really fun to watch. They played the Devil went down to Georgia, and man can I say, He really knew how to play! During the show the owner asked stephanie to get up with david and have him ring the bells during the christmas music portion. David loved it, and Cache quickly came over with Curt to join in on the noisy fun! I tried getting a picture of it but since they were shaking the bells in it turned out a little blurry.

David and Cache really Loved the music. They'd dance, and laugh and play. It was really neat to see them being so good!

At the end of the show the owner asked me....YES ME....out of like 150 people to join him on the stage. He asked me if i'd ever done any magic and I said NO! haha, he then asked me to tie a knot at the end of two scarves, so that they were secure together. After testing the knot he asked for my trust and slid them down the top of my shirt. He said "I bet your parents are out there really nervous right now," to which i responded, "no worse, my brothers!" haha the crowed laughed quiet a bit. After a few jokes here and there, he asked me to take one end of one scarf, and he'd take the other, and we'd pull in opposit directions. The result....

MY BRA! ....haha just kidding, but it was a really funny joke, and everyone laughed really hard. Of course he had to pick "ME" to come up. It was a lot of fun, and i'm glad i had the opportunity to participate. I can't thanks Stephanie and Andrew enough for the family experience at Mountain River Ranch. It was a good time, and a great way to wrap up the perfect weekend. Thanks you two!

Here are the two largest horses that Moutain River Ranch owns. AREN'T THEY HUGE! I know, they are the prettiest things ever!

To wrap up the weekend, we had a family game of ROCKBAND! The boys were so intense. As you can see Curt is on Bass, Matt on Drums, Me on Vocals (I was terrible) and Adam rocking out on the guitar. We did switch it up a bit, i got boo'd off stage on drums once. haha, it was a good time. The boys kept making comments to the picture taker (stephanie) "hey, how does it feel to say that you are sleeping with a member of the band" - when andrew was playing Bass. Haha overall a very fun weekend with my siblings. It was nice to have another setting to get together at besides mom and dad's place. We're all growing up!!!!

DREAMS SHATTERED

Last night I was looking on craigslist for a car. I've been thinking for awhile that it'd be good to purchase my own vehicle that way mom can sell my car, or use it as a more economical car for themselves. So I discovered a 2005 VW passat TDI GLS 2.0L in Coeur D' Alene. It was the same exact car that I remembered emailing about in August when I was in Alaska. The guy had dropped the price $1500 and so it sparked my interest. I emailed him asking him again how many miles were on the car, and told him I could have a loan approval by the next morning. He wrote back around midnight when I was already in bed and said the car had 71,743 miles on it. SCREAMING DEAL! He was letting his car go for $5800:) I was so excited. I quickly faxed in a loan application around noon, kept trying to email him...and contact the insurance. After not hearing back from him all afternoon I decided to pull up his craiglist ad again, and it was gone. He had removed it. I was so sad. I bet he sold it:( I was crushed, I literally felt like crying. It was such a good deal - but I guess it was too good to be true. I mean the car blue booked at $13,500. (curt even said he could've sold in for $10,000 in 2 hours in Denver) Man I wish I could've had that car...I guess i'll just find another one.

SAY GOODBYE TO THE CAR I COULD'VE BEEN DRIVING TOMORROW.

Chic Flick

The other night I splurged when I saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. I rememeber growing up and some of my friends' mom's wouldn't let them read the books as they were too 'suggestive'. I hadn't really thought about the books being good, my parent didn't care what I read really. 3 years ago when I moved her Alyssa invited me over for a movie night. We watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 1 and it was awesome. Also we watched Waking Ned Divine which has turned out to be one of my favorite movies! I love it! Man I really need a girls movie night. I miss Sarah, Brittney, Minta, and Alyssa. Oh the good times we had! I wish we would've gotten together a little more but we did what we could I guess. I loved this movie, i even shed a couple tears. Nothing like a much needed chick flick!

The 22

As you know mom and dad arrived back home on Saturday night. Due to their exaution they didn't unload the truck, and instead took a couple days to rest. This morning we all got up and got around and organized a little bit. After unloading the truck I then realized we didn't do enough organizing.

Before Mom and Dad came home

& After they arrived home and unloaded

The Kitchen

what a mess.

We did make sure to take time to have a little fun. In fact when removing the guns from the truck - mom noticed that the 22 was still loaded. Grandpa's theory she said, was to keep his guns all loaded, that way everyone knew they were loaded and ready to go and they'd stay away from them. Mom wanted them empty before putting them in the house, so i had the privilage of 'unloading' the 22.

Me shooting!

My shell!


The grass hole near the middle, close to the boards...that was my target. Actuall that's were my 4 bullets hit. haha, took out the grass :)

My grandpa's gun.

As you notice there are no geese in the bay. They all fled after the first 2 shots. It was the funniest thing - I think I found dad a new Geese eliminator. All he has to do is shoot once and they are gone from the entire bay for awhile.

Dinner Date

Last week after mom and dad left town, i found it hard for me to get motivated to do anything while i was home. I often caught myself sitting on the couch watching TV wasting the days away. Now we all know that there's plenty to be done around here, and I could do it. I had time! But i didn't. It wasn't until a couple days ago that i got bored of the TV and realized i lived 5 months without it...I flipped it off, gave myself a little pep talk and headed to the kitchen. I put on a movie while cleaning the kitchen and just working my way through the downstairs. We usually clean the house this thorough 1) When guests/family are come....2) We have company coming over for something. And that's pretty much it. I just got so sick of coming home to a FILTHY house. Mom and Dad are busy enough and so it's difficult to find time to tidy things up. So little items just get built upon, and the mess becomes a catastrophic disaster.

This morning I woke up really early and went into town. The plan was to go grocery shopping, stop by the theater, buy kung fu panda and come home. After accomplishing my errands - I walked in the house and thought...there is more cleaning to be done. I don't know if i had a case of OCD this week or what, but i cleaned all afternoon until about 3 pm where I figured it was probably time to take a shower, and get ready for the evening. I think this cleaning phase I'm going through is the mentality of knowing the whole family is in Sequim, WA working at Grandpa's house and I'm stuck here. So there they are working their tails off and I'm sitting and watching TV? I don't think so. Plus- Mom has been through a lot lately...with work, her back, her voice, and now her father....I didn't want her to come home to a pile of junk EVERYWHERE. The house is now in tip top shape:) Plus I thought mom would appreciate it if I went ahead and put up a few of her fall decor. So I decorated the table and the cabinet next to the dining area, it looks cute with the little i had to work with!

While cleaning this afternoon I was busy playing "Betty-Crocker" Steaming vegetables and such. Tonight I prepared dinner for Del. I've never actually cooked for him without his help. I've baked plenty but when it comes to cooking he always ends up in the kitchen helping out/taking over....which isn't a bad things because I usually expect it. He likes to cook, and he's very good at it. Plus some of the things we make, he knows how to do better so it's a learning process. But none the less, this was the first meal that I prepared solely on my own. I marinated the chicken in sage, shallots, and sour cream all afternoon. The menu was as follows : Steamed Red Potatoes spiced with Basil and Green Onion, Steamed Asparagus, Sage Seasoned Chicken, and Spinach and Mixed Romain Salad with Sea Scallops. The day when by so quickly. Between cleaning, and cooking and baking I thought I would run out of time. Del showed up around 6pm. I didn't expect him till 7pm so I asked him to stay out of the kitchen as I didn't really want him to pitch in his ideas or help for "this" particular meal. I wanted to do it all by myself. I know I can cook; and it's very necessary that I learn. He watched funniest home video's while I finished up. I finally had the finishing touches done by 7pm and we were sitting down to eat. I thought about getting a picture of the meal because everything looked really delicious, but I hadn't eaten all day and I was starving! Everything turned out excellent. You'll all be so happy to hear that I DIDN'T EVEN NEED KETCHUP ON MY CHICKEN! It's a miracle, i know :)

For desert we shared some Cream Puffs I made, topped with fresh Strawberries, and chocolate glaze. I took a picture of the platter because it looked so delicate and pretty. The picture is a little blurry cause I was using dad's digital Camera.

Water Line- Sage Francis

This is my new favorite song. It's featured on the end of the movie Pride and Glory. This videos main focus is the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina, and the falter of the goverments decision to stand-by. Although when i listen to the key lyrics "the waterline is rising, and all we do is stand there" I think of this present time. We have been warned, the flood (perilous times) Is coming and we need to prepare. The waterline is rising, and we can't just stand idle. We need to get up, get moving, and get ready. The waterline IS rising, and we need to do more than just stand there.

through my eyes.

it's 1 am. and i couldn't sleep. Big surprise I know. You see i was up till about 4am last night. thinking, crying, the works. So i'm really tired tonight but can't sleep :[

today when i got home i curled up in my bed, got out a book, and drank hot cocoa. it couldn't have been a better more comforting feelings. Now that I can't sleep, I decided to write a blog about myself.

1) I'm 19. Still young but most all my friends that are my age, and members are now married, or getting married.

2) I don't regret dropping out of school at all. It's not something I wanted for my life. Going to school to meet guys is not the reason to go to college, no matter who you are. Furthering my education is important, but it's not yet right for me. I need to find my niche.

3) I love customer serivce. I thrive off problem solving. I enjoy leadership and am pretty responsible when it comes to such situations. I also do well at the bottom of the food chain.

4) I have big dreams - low budget.

5) Kayden, Tallon, Trey, Skylar, Cassidy. names i like. they'll probably change.

6) I hate not being able to sleep.

7) I want a victorian home like this someday. Only a different color, & a wrap around porch.

8) I want flowers.