Esmée Denters - Outta Here

This past week has been great:) So much to be grateful for! I am not lieing when I say that love songs no longer make me sick, pictures of the past few months no longer make me sad, and it is FINALLY the last thing on my mind (if it's even on my mind at all) Coming to terms and growing up to realize that I'm not a princess, and life isn't a fairytale has really been a good thing for me! There's beauty in the plan, and I'm confident in saying - It's in the past, and I'm done done done playing little boys games!

I was able to sign a form saying that I'm willing to move out whenever they find a renter for my apartment. The exciting thing in this is NOT to have roommates (aka: Mom and Dad) but to save save save the next few months for school. I really hope to not have to have a job while attending school in Rexburg! Being more goal oriented has truly helped me see what I want so clearly, and go for it! So moving out - or back into Mom and Dads actually - is the first step for me.

Also this week I was able to find some personal growth and answers to things I have been concerned about, questioning, felt uneasy about, and what not. Things are falling into place like a puzzle, and it feels good. I also had the opportunity (in my rare but spare time) to write 8, yes count them, 8 missionaries! How awesome it felt to be able to sit down and just put some things down on paper. I will have those in the mail tomorrow!

Lastly, I have faith that my "someday" will come. I pray that it's not anytime in the near future as I have a lot of cruises I could go on with Dad!

So things to look forward to:

1. Hanging out with Rick Curtiss, and Bob tomorrow!
2. Taking Arielle to the Dive downtown with YSA for her 20th birthday
3. Camp out on Lake Coeur D'Alene this weekend
4. David Archuleta next weekend
5. Jeremy and Morgan visiting in a few weeks.
6. My birthday in 18 days
7. crush crush crush
8. Rexburg asap.
9. Family Reunion
10. Did I mention my 21st Birthday in 18 days!?

Happy Birthday To Me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
(20 days and counting)

This past weekend Dad was in Seattle for a few days so Mom and I took a day trip to Coeur D'Alene (just the two of us). It was a fun girls day! We got to go shopping, then to dinner and then capped off the night with a movie before meeting up with dad who was flying home that evening. While shopping mom decided it'd be a perfect time to look at luggage. It is Graduation season therefore most all luggage is on SALE! We looked a couple different places before finding these:) It came in Three sizes, but I told mom that I would probably only need the carry on the middle size:) I'm so happy with the purchase! Thanks Mom and Dad for the wonderful birthday gift - and making my traveling that much easier!

Now, Where to cruise to next? ha ha. Yeah right, I have got to save up for school!

I love love love love love love them:)

New Hair:)

I decided the other day that I should get my hair done. If most of you don't know, I'm very protective over my hair. I don't let anyone I don't trust touch it! It takes a lot for me to go to a salon and allow them to trim it or anything. I've only put color (more like highlights) in my hair once. The only thing that got me to do that - was someone told me I wouldn't do it, so I did it just to prove them wrong! I will never chop my hair off again, but I was looking for some sort of change. I drove to the salon and sat for like 15 minutes. I couldn't get myself to go inside. I knew I wanted a trim but I also wanted : Layers, red and blonde highlights, bangs. I wasn't sure what I should do, if I should just get the simple trim and call it good, or do something CRAZY & live it up. I finally got myself to walk in. They were able to see me in just a few short minutes so I sat down and flipped through a magazine. The anticipation/excitement, and nervousness of my stomach was overwhelming. I'd assume that it would be much like waiting for the doctor to tell you if you are having a boy or girl....haha, it was insane. All over hair? ha ha, of course over hair...My hair is long, and fairly healthy. I don't like to mess with it too much. I always fear if I cut it, it won't grow back. Or if I color it, my natural color will change, or it will forever ruin my hair! Although these are rational fears, I needed to calm down! I sat in the chair, told her I wanted some bangs, and trim, and red and blonde highlights. AHHHH so scared! But I did it, and made it out alive. She did kind of mess up, and I have an appt to go and get the back fixed just a little - but other than that, I kind of like the change:) It's hard to see in the picture, but the red is VERY evident! Anyways, with new goals and me trying to better myself - what better way to do that then start with a fresh hairstyle!


Ps. I hate the bangs, they make me want to throw up! But it's just hair.

Catch up!

The past couple weeks have been crazy. First Ryan and I break up, then I start to make simple but drastic changes in my surroundings. I started to do anything and everything I could to keep my mind busy and happy:) So, I decided it was time to (drum roll please) Take the grandpa canopy off my truck. While very practical, I kind of like the look better with it off. What's next to go you may ask yourself, well the mud flaps to put it simply. Long ago Del and Carson suggested that I take them off. I disagreed for some time as they are screwed halfway up the wheel well....but after some careful thought, I realized - that doesn't matter it will still look better. Man speaking of Carson and Del, I didn't realize how much advice they gave me that I NEVER EVER took into consideration when it came to my vehicles. & they are practically experts! But it's now time to start doing some up-keep on the Ranger, and start making some changes I want.

Here is the picture of the Ranger after I took the canopy off:)

I owe a great thanks to my family and friends in "keeping me busy" the past few weeks. After all the confusion, and long drawn out process of THE END to a story that had just begun I had no idea what to do. It's like making all these plans and they crash right in front of you. It's hard to pick up where you left off prior to all those plans you had created in your mind. So I reapplied to BYUI, Took the canopy off my truck, highlighted my hair blonde and red, cut some bangs, and have been spending more time with my family and friends.

2 weeks ago, mom and dad were going down to Spokane to babysit while Adam and Brandi went to the Tim McGraw concert. I had heard a few months prior to this that they had purchased a third ticket as they originally planned to take Adalynn with them. They invited me to use that third ticket:) I was so excited, it was awfully kind of them. The only downside to the ticket - it wasn't by them! BUT THAT WAS A-OKAY WITH ME! It was Tim McGraw and Lady Antebellum! Who cares where I sit? I was in the upper level overlooking the stage. After Lady A, Adam text me and told me that there was two empty seats next to them and he'd meet me at their gate in a few minutes. I did, and was able to watch the main act (TIM MCGRAW!) with Brandi and Adam. They were on the lower level with a better view of the screen! The picture below is the only picture that really turned out from my phone! I got a few videos but they are too large to email to myself:) All in all, it was so much fun to spend some time with Adam and Brandi, and I was so thankful for the opportunity. It was just what I needed:) Thanks brother of mine! You're the best!

Above, Brandi's husband:)

Sisterly love

Proof my sister and I have always been best friends:)

Like Mother, Like Daughter

I was flipping through these photos that were in a tub at Grandpa Scoullers house that Adam so kindly put on a DVD for our family. I was looking at mom and dad's wedding photographs and realized, RIGHT NOW I LOOK JUST LIKE MY MOM IN 1974! It's crazy. I honestly couldn't tell the difference if I didn't know any better. I can only hope I look half as beautiful on my wedding day (whenever that time may come) as my mother did on hers. I do have one complaint though : Dad hideous suit. I'm sorry, but bright pink, and lemon yellow, and black - that was never in fashion. Hot mess is what I like to call that:)

Mom and Dad cutting their wedding cake! (Do you see me in there?)

Mom and dad. Holy cow, if mom had just a little bit longer hair I could crop everyone else out and use this as a self portrait!

Look how happy my parents are:) Awww - true and enduring love!