DREAMS SHATTERED

Last night I was looking on craigslist for a car. I've been thinking for awhile that it'd be good to purchase my own vehicle that way mom can sell my car, or use it as a more economical car for themselves. So I discovered a 2005 VW passat TDI GLS 2.0L in Coeur D' Alene. It was the same exact car that I remembered emailing about in August when I was in Alaska. The guy had dropped the price $1500 and so it sparked my interest. I emailed him asking him again how many miles were on the car, and told him I could have a loan approval by the next morning. He wrote back around midnight when I was already in bed and said the car had 71,743 miles on it. SCREAMING DEAL! He was letting his car go for $5800:) I was so excited. I quickly faxed in a loan application around noon, kept trying to email him...and contact the insurance. After not hearing back from him all afternoon I decided to pull up his craiglist ad again, and it was gone. He had removed it. I was so sad. I bet he sold it:( I was crushed, I literally felt like crying. It was such a good deal - but I guess it was too good to be true. I mean the car blue booked at $13,500. (curt even said he could've sold in for $10,000 in 2 hours in Denver) Man I wish I could've had that car...I guess i'll just find another one.

SAY GOODBYE TO THE CAR I COULD'VE BEEN DRIVING TOMORROW.

Chic Flick

The other night I splurged when I saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. I rememeber growing up and some of my friends' mom's wouldn't let them read the books as they were too 'suggestive'. I hadn't really thought about the books being good, my parent didn't care what I read really. 3 years ago when I moved her Alyssa invited me over for a movie night. We watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 1 and it was awesome. Also we watched Waking Ned Divine which has turned out to be one of my favorite movies! I love it! Man I really need a girls movie night. I miss Sarah, Brittney, Minta, and Alyssa. Oh the good times we had! I wish we would've gotten together a little more but we did what we could I guess. I loved this movie, i even shed a couple tears. Nothing like a much needed chick flick!

The 22

As you know mom and dad arrived back home on Saturday night. Due to their exaution they didn't unload the truck, and instead took a couple days to rest. This morning we all got up and got around and organized a little bit. After unloading the truck I then realized we didn't do enough organizing.

Before Mom and Dad came home

& After they arrived home and unloaded

The Kitchen

what a mess.

We did make sure to take time to have a little fun. In fact when removing the guns from the truck - mom noticed that the 22 was still loaded. Grandpa's theory she said, was to keep his guns all loaded, that way everyone knew they were loaded and ready to go and they'd stay away from them. Mom wanted them empty before putting them in the house, so i had the privilage of 'unloading' the 22.

Me shooting!

My shell!


The grass hole near the middle, close to the boards...that was my target. Actuall that's were my 4 bullets hit. haha, took out the grass :)

My grandpa's gun.

As you notice there are no geese in the bay. They all fled after the first 2 shots. It was the funniest thing - I think I found dad a new Geese eliminator. All he has to do is shoot once and they are gone from the entire bay for awhile.

Dinner Date

Last week after mom and dad left town, i found it hard for me to get motivated to do anything while i was home. I often caught myself sitting on the couch watching TV wasting the days away. Now we all know that there's plenty to be done around here, and I could do it. I had time! But i didn't. It wasn't until a couple days ago that i got bored of the TV and realized i lived 5 months without it...I flipped it off, gave myself a little pep talk and headed to the kitchen. I put on a movie while cleaning the kitchen and just working my way through the downstairs. We usually clean the house this thorough 1) When guests/family are come....2) We have company coming over for something. And that's pretty much it. I just got so sick of coming home to a FILTHY house. Mom and Dad are busy enough and so it's difficult to find time to tidy things up. So little items just get built upon, and the mess becomes a catastrophic disaster.

This morning I woke up really early and went into town. The plan was to go grocery shopping, stop by the theater, buy kung fu panda and come home. After accomplishing my errands - I walked in the house and thought...there is more cleaning to be done. I don't know if i had a case of OCD this week or what, but i cleaned all afternoon until about 3 pm where I figured it was probably time to take a shower, and get ready for the evening. I think this cleaning phase I'm going through is the mentality of knowing the whole family is in Sequim, WA working at Grandpa's house and I'm stuck here. So there they are working their tails off and I'm sitting and watching TV? I don't think so. Plus- Mom has been through a lot lately...with work, her back, her voice, and now her father....I didn't want her to come home to a pile of junk EVERYWHERE. The house is now in tip top shape:) Plus I thought mom would appreciate it if I went ahead and put up a few of her fall decor. So I decorated the table and the cabinet next to the dining area, it looks cute with the little i had to work with!

While cleaning this afternoon I was busy playing "Betty-Crocker" Steaming vegetables and such. Tonight I prepared dinner for Del. I've never actually cooked for him without his help. I've baked plenty but when it comes to cooking he always ends up in the kitchen helping out/taking over....which isn't a bad things because I usually expect it. He likes to cook, and he's very good at it. Plus some of the things we make, he knows how to do better so it's a learning process. But none the less, this was the first meal that I prepared solely on my own. I marinated the chicken in sage, shallots, and sour cream all afternoon. The menu was as follows : Steamed Red Potatoes spiced with Basil and Green Onion, Steamed Asparagus, Sage Seasoned Chicken, and Spinach and Mixed Romain Salad with Sea Scallops. The day when by so quickly. Between cleaning, and cooking and baking I thought I would run out of time. Del showed up around 6pm. I didn't expect him till 7pm so I asked him to stay out of the kitchen as I didn't really want him to pitch in his ideas or help for "this" particular meal. I wanted to do it all by myself. I know I can cook; and it's very necessary that I learn. He watched funniest home video's while I finished up. I finally had the finishing touches done by 7pm and we were sitting down to eat. I thought about getting a picture of the meal because everything looked really delicious, but I hadn't eaten all day and I was starving! Everything turned out excellent. You'll all be so happy to hear that I DIDN'T EVEN NEED KETCHUP ON MY CHICKEN! It's a miracle, i know :)

For desert we shared some Cream Puffs I made, topped with fresh Strawberries, and chocolate glaze. I took a picture of the platter because it looked so delicate and pretty. The picture is a little blurry cause I was using dad's digital Camera.

Water Line- Sage Francis

This is my new favorite song. It's featured on the end of the movie Pride and Glory. This videos main focus is the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina, and the falter of the goverments decision to stand-by. Although when i listen to the key lyrics "the waterline is rising, and all we do is stand there" I think of this present time. We have been warned, the flood (perilous times) Is coming and we need to prepare. The waterline is rising, and we can't just stand idle. We need to get up, get moving, and get ready. The waterline IS rising, and we need to do more than just stand there.

through my eyes.

it's 1 am. and i couldn't sleep. Big surprise I know. You see i was up till about 4am last night. thinking, crying, the works. So i'm really tired tonight but can't sleep :[

today when i got home i curled up in my bed, got out a book, and drank hot cocoa. it couldn't have been a better more comforting feelings. Now that I can't sleep, I decided to write a blog about myself.

1) I'm 19. Still young but most all my friends that are my age, and members are now married, or getting married.

2) I don't regret dropping out of school at all. It's not something I wanted for my life. Going to school to meet guys is not the reason to go to college, no matter who you are. Furthering my education is important, but it's not yet right for me. I need to find my niche.

3) I love customer serivce. I thrive off problem solving. I enjoy leadership and am pretty responsible when it comes to such situations. I also do well at the bottom of the food chain.

4) I have big dreams - low budget.

5) Kayden, Tallon, Trey, Skylar, Cassidy. names i like. they'll probably change.

6) I hate not being able to sleep.

7) I want a victorian home like this someday. Only a different color, & a wrap around porch.

8) I want flowers.

God be with you till we meet again

Meet Tom Scouller

Families can be together Forever.

Dad, Grandpa Scouller, Mom

Yesterday around 3:30 pm, I recieved a call from dad saying that Grandpa Scouller had a stroke and is in the hospital. I text the other 5 siblings to give them a heads up. It was right around Midnight that I got another phone call from dad who was in the truck waiting for the fairy to go to the hospital with mom. He called with the most tragic news, that Grandpa had passed on. With a religious perspective in mind - I know that he's in a much better place, and he's probably definatly greatful he doesn't have to take those "DARNED PILLS" ever again. He always complained about his eleven pills he had to take daily.

Last weekend we were there from Friday night to Sunday Morning. He called on us to come help take down some tree's to eliminate yard work and the mess they produced. Adam & Brandi, Stephanie & David, Jeremy, Morgan, Maggie & Boyd all spent Saturday morning and afternoon clearing tree's, stacking wood, packing, and organizing. Projects that Grandpa had around the house that he noted needed to be done. We were all so VERY tired as when we arrived the Night Owl Grandpa himself was up and alive wanting to visit and talk. Mom, Dad and him were awake till 4:30 am chatting. At the time I was so selfish thinking "all I want to do is sleep, please go to bed" Now i'm so thankful that my parents had the opportunity to share those last few hours of conversation with him. The next morning it was extremely hard to wake grandpa up. I was spoon-feeding Apple juice to him. Our original thought is that in his sleep, his blood sugar had gotten too low, and naturally his body didn't want to wake up. He just wanted to sleep. We figured that the minute the apple juice hit his blood stream he'd come too. Which he did! But I'm not sure it was the apple juice that woke him up. Grandpa had also suffered from a few passing out spells recently, and also has been noticed "extremly hard to wake up". He had gone over a full 24 hours of sleep one day two weeks ago. I find it hard to believe that juice woke him up as I think the Lord beckond him to wake up and spend the last few hours with us. It's not ironic at all that we were there that weekend. Heavenly father works in mysterious ways, and I believe that he spared Grandpa long enough for us to make our planned trip there.

Trying to wake grandpa up. You can see that i'm spoon feeding him Apple Juice

Before leaving on Saturday afternoon, grandpa took out his medical cups and called everyone to the dining room. He asked Brandi to fill each cup, and hand them out to the adults. He kept saying "Mormon Champagne" haha. At the time the family laughed and smiled and played along with Grandpa's silly idea. Dad said a prayer and blessed Grandpa's home and Thanked our Father in Heaven for the opportunity for all of us to gather together and spend time with Grandpa. We toasted and I can only think that it was Grandpa's final HARRAH to his life. A toast for all the things he's accomplished and lived for. I took some pictures of the toasting, and i'll cherish those photos all my life. It's candid moments like that you're so glad you captured later on.

I felt so guilty when My dad called me the first time, informing me of the stroke. You see - I debated going over alot. I kept thinking "they won't need my help, i'll just standing around, and i'd rather work." How terribly selfish that was. My dad would tell me that i'd be greatful later that I went. I hate to admitt it but my father was more than right. Had I not gone over last weekend...I would be kicking myself the rest of my life. When leaving with Jeremy and Morgan he tried telling my mom to not let me go. He said I was ditching him. I feel so bad for not staying, but you can't live life with regrets. Without me there, my mom was able to spend a little more personal time with her father. I've never been really close to my Grandpa Scouller due to his family circumstances...But i'm so happy i had the chance to really get to know him, love him, and be close to him the past 8 months or so. I love you Grandpa Scouller. Your Pip-Squeak misses you truely.

Grandpa Scouller with great-grandson Boyd Noble.

Grandpa Scouller with his great-grandson David Lynn Hansen

Grandpa Scouller never looked at the camera. It was so tough to get a good photo of him looking AND smiling.

I love and Miss you Grandpa!

Winters Coming - Fall is Leaving

On my way out the door to work- I noticed how unique the sky looked. So I grabbed mom's camera off the table and took it with me. I left about 15 minutes earlier than I normally would and stopped at my favorite spot to view the sunset and longbridge. As I sat there I couldn't help but take in the beauty of this beautiful area I live in. I love Sandpoint so much, it's gorgeous. Anyways so the sun was going down and it was a bit cloudy out. The sky was completely pinkish/orange. I loved it. In the distance of a few of the pictures you can see that the upper elevations have snow in them. Looks like Mom, Dad and I are going to have to start parking the cars up top - Snow is on the way. Winter is almost here. So here are a few photos are took today. Is North Idaho not the most Gorgeous place on earth?

The Fall tree's are few and far between now. The winter cold and wind has come taken all the leaves off the trees. But I was fortunate to catch these few left in the bay area near the tracks. How pretty huh, especially with the pink sky! ohhh I love it.

WHATEVER I LIKE!-OBAMA MUSIC VIDEO

Well i'm not happy with the fact that he won, but this is truely funny! I laughed so hard when I saw this. It just makes me think of the time that Obama stated he want to make "politics Cool" again. haha gross.

"A time for Change"

Who Is It Going To Be. America Has Spoken.

The 2008 Presidential Election.

• Democratic Ticket: Sen. Barack Obama , Joe Biden
• Republican Ticket: Sen. John McCain , Sarah Palin

• AND THE WINNER IS.....

OBAMA (in his acceptance speech): "There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can't solve every problem. "

Meet Your New President
Barack Hussein Obama

(haha)

I guess it really is a time for change. Early this evening we found out the results for the 2008 presidential election. Dad and I watched eagerly all day to find out the results. Glued to the TV it wasn't looking good after Obama claimed Pennsylvania and Ohio. Both key battleground states in this election. As Obama moved forward to a lead of 207 to McCains mere 146 dad and I both sighed as we knew it was over. Obama was then declared the next "projected" President of the United States of America. The republican party was fortunate enought to keep the majority in the Senate. (luckily) I'm scared for what will happen to our country now, it terrify's me to think of it. Many of the policies and view points Obama had that will possibly be implimented just reflect that of a weak and immoral nation. I sincerely hope that while we all sit back and ponder today's events - we'll realize all we have is faith, and hope. May god with be with you all in this trying time. Some are rejoicing in the great significance of this history making day (and don't get me wrong it is amazing our nation has come that far.) No one would've thought we'd elect & ACCEPT an African American candidate for the President of our GREAT nation. You see, and News teams sit there and highlight how amazing and truely inspirational this day is, all I can think of is how we don't know much of what and who Barack Hussein Obama is? How did this happen? What has US come to? We will see what the next 4 years bring us. I pray that it's quick, and not too harsh on the American Economy, Families, and Health.

McCain stated in his concession speech:

"It is natural. It's natural, tonight, to feel some disappointment. But tomorrow, we must move beyond it and work together to get our country moving again."

This is exactly what we'll have to do. We will all work together, and cross our fingers that we made the right choice. That we're going to wake up tomorrow and things will be 'alright'. In closing McCain states:

"Americans never quit. We never surrender. We never hide from history. We make history. Thank you, and God bless you, and God bless America. Thank you all very much."

He gave the most inspirational, and memorable speech. His calm nature just made your realize how humble John McCain is. I never really agree'd with all his policies... but for the most part - He and Sarah Palin would've represented the TRUE American Citizen.

Obama in his victory speech said many things, but the following quote was my favorite of the mumbo jumbo he spoke.

"You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime -- two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.
Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.
There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage or pay their doctors' bills or save enough for their child's college education. There's new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair. The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you, we as a people will get there. "

The road ahead will be long, rough, and not so straight. Together, we must stand to get there. With Barack as our leader, we must follow behind him; as one great nation...and hope he leads us for the betterment of the USA. If not, we'll change things in 2012...It's been rumored that Sarah Palin will run for the Republican Party in that Election:) Wouldn't that be exciting! We shall wait....and see....(It's over. I'm don't complaining. The End.)

Election Day

That's right! Today was the very first time I'm able to actually say I VOTED! I was so excited this whole past week, knowing that on Election Tuesday I would get to take the drive to the Sewer plant (haha no lie) To cast my ballot. When I woke up this morning I decided it'd only be appropriet to also dress up in Red, White and Blue to display my patriotism. Haha, then I insisted I take pictures with Mom and Dad before heading out the door to vote. You see this is the first Election that I actually got to vote. I turned 18 in 2007, so I can proudly now say that My vote counts! It feels excellent. I love politics. Hey maybe that's what I should go into. Okay-now some pictures of the journey!

This is where our District comes to vote. A very Muddy parking lot, and inside a room full or tables with 2 standing booths and one sit-down.

Yep that's right, does this not look like the most official and operational voting venue ever! haha only in North Idaho would go to your local sewer plant to vote!

You can bet your bottom Dollar that I support McCain-Palin for the 2008 Election.

This is me! Just before going to cast my VOTE

Mom and I before going to VOTE

Dad and I before going to VOTE

Get out there and VOTE! polls are open till 8pm! Make it right, vote smart:)

More from Halloween Weekend:)

Just a few photos I loved from this weekend, and decided to spruce up a bit. I love them a lot. Anyways enjoy....and don't forget to vote tomorrow :]